Tuesday, November 22, 2011

My little scientist

Dear Catalina,
I can't believe how fast time is flying by!  It is almost Thanksgiving, and you are almost 9 months old!  Unbelievable.  You are changing so fast.  Every day you come up with a new "thing" that you do.  Its hard to keep up.  Unfortunately lately you've discovered pouting and crying to get your way.  Its actually pretty cute--but I'm sure that will wear off.  You are such a little scientist these days--experimenting with how to hold and touch things.  You still aren't crawling.  It doesn't really look like you will.  You like to walk around the house (with us holding your hands), but it doesn't really seem that walking will come anytime soon either.  That's ok.  You are working at your own pace and that's just fine.  You aren't sleeping well anymore and that is somewhat more troubling.  You just don't seem to understand that we can't always snuggle with you.  You want to be held while sleeping--whether napping or in the evening.  We've definitely created a monster!  You are finally starting to break mommy with sleep deprivation.  These past few days have been rough.  I can't resist you though--so every time you cry--I'm there with a boob.  Sometimes I wish you weren't so cute!

We went to Phoenix for a conference last week.  You and Daddy came along to keep me company.  You managed to charm all the conference-goers.  You also seemed to sleep much better in Phoenix.  Daddy and I are wondering if part of your problem is the elevation up here.  They say that it affects everyone's sleep.  I guess I never really thought about it before.  I just figured if you were born here, you would be better adapted.  Hopefully it was just a coincidence that you slept well at the hotel--maybe you liked the king-sized bed--I know I did!

We also went to the zoo.  You are a little young to enjoy the zoo, but you were surprisingly interested in some of the exhibits.  You seem to really like glass--especially pounding on it with your fists.  I'm pretty sure the animals didn't appreciate that, but we tried to contain your enthusiasm.

So here are some of your favorite things right now.

The "termite"--this is a toy that you picked out from Marshall's when you were just a few months old.  It made you laugh then and it still makes you laugh.  You press its giant head and it vibrates and plays a song.  We can often get you to stop crying in the car by pressing it over and over!

Hanging upside-down.  Your daddy will carry you all over the house hanging by your feet.  You just smile and laugh.  You never seem to get tired of it.

Spinning.  I am actually kind of worried that we are doing permanent damage to you.  You love sitting in the office chair (actually you stand and hold on to the back and we sit) and just spinning around really fast.  Your head starts to loll back and forth and your eyes are spinning, but you are laughing and smiling.  I get it--I used to love spinning too, but now it makes me want to vomit!  Sometimes we put you in your Jenny-Jump-Up and just spin you around.  It is really fun to watch you get so dizzy!

Banging on glass.  As I mentioned before, you really enjoy pounding on windows.  Its even better when you can see your reflection in the glass, but any glass will do really.

Dancing.  We have borrowed a "Pack-in-Play" from some friends.  You seem to enjoy holding yourself in a standing position and wiggling your bottom to music (we call it dancing).  You will also do this standing on a chair and holding on to the back.  You love it when I dance with you.

Trees.  Every time we go to the park, you insist on inspecting the bark of the pine trees.  Even at the zoo, you were more interested in the trees than the animals.  You love to feel different textures so we think that's what attracts you to the bark.  Unfortunately, you also seem to enjoy eating it when we're not watching!

Brushing your "teeth" (even though you don't have any).  I introduced the toothbrush to you a few weeks ago and you took to it right away.  You hold it in your mouth and move it around--it really looks like you're brushing your teeth.  You cry when I try to take it away!  I hope you enjoy it as much when you do have teeth!  You won't take a pacifier, but you sure love your toothbrush!

Ok darling, we'll add to the list as we see fit.  I can't wait to see what you decide to do tomorrow!

As always,
Love
Mommy

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Halloween and a new era

Dear Catalina,
Well you successfully survived your first Halloween with your crazy mother.  You were a chipmunk.  Mommy spent weeks sewing your costume--and it turned out pretty good.  Nevermind that many people called you a raccoon or a squirrel.  I guess that will happen.  You were totally a chipmunk and you rocked your costume!  It seems that nothing we can do to you will ever make you any less cute. 
Daddy worked really hard to finish my tree costume in time (we were both supposed to be trees--but he failed to take my advice that costumes take longer than expected and only one got finished).  To his credit, he did a great job on it.  Everybody loved it.  Yeah another successful Halloween!  Its mommy's favorite holiday, so you should probably get used to a bit of craziness around that time of year!  I can't wait until you're old enough to share in the excitement.

We also went to Phoenix last week to visit with your Grandma Terry and your Aunt CJ and Uncle Zak and all of their children.  Its really too bad we only saw your cousins for a few hours because I think you could benefit from being around kids right now.  Unfortunately our timing this time was poor as you were up past your bedtime and not in a great mood for getting to know others.

Speaking of moods, you've recently decided that you are officially a "Daddy's little girl."  That's right, you've turned your back on the person that carried you in her belly for 9 months, took great pains to give birth to you, nursed you for the last eight months, and took care of you for 80% of the time for your young life!  I have to confess, it hurts my feelings to see you cry because you want Daddy to hold you instead of Mommy.  It started a few weeks ago I guess--but it really became noticeable maybe the week before last.  At first I thought it was because I went back to work part time and am gone for 9+ hours two days a week.  I think that does have something to do with it, but I also think its because your daddy indulges you more than mommy.  He is also generally less distracted when he is with you I think.  In my defense, what was distracting me was how we were going to keep paying bills and the mortgage with both of us out of work, but I was distracted nonetheless.  I knew eventually daddy would win you over with leniency, but I had no idea it would start so early.  I still love you and find you irresistible--and I can only hope this doesn't get any worse as time goes on.  I can't help but feel like I have somehow already lost my little girl.  I know that's silly.  If it sounds like I'm bitter--I guess I am a bit.  I tend to be very sensitive to how other's treat me, so this hasn't helped my ego much!  The problem is that now I feel like I need to be over-indulgent in order to "compete" for your love.  I am a firm believer in discipline (a belief your father does not share).  Not corporal punishment mind you--but that... well...that we don't always get what we want right when we want it.  I'm probably a little too far to one extreme on that one--and your dad on the other.  Hopefully you will end up with a balance.  Please know that I did not want to go back to work.  Originally when we knew you were coming, it was expected that I would work and your dad would take care of you, but when I lost my job before you were born--well that changed everything.  You are quite addictive!  Being home with you for those first few weeks really made me long to be mommy--to stay at home and take care of you and bake and make craft projects...and well, to be mommy.  Unfortunately, I also knew that bills needed to be paid--and I didn't want to raise you out on the street or move in with nana and poppa because we didn't have any money.  So I started to work.  I hope you understand now that it was out of love for you that I went back to work.  I still long to be mommy--but well, unfortunately you will have to share my time with other pursuits for now.

I love you so dearly and I apologize for anything I may have done to turn you away these last few weeks.  If I could take it back I surely would!

As always,
I love you
Mommy