Amazing you!

Hi Baby! Sorry it's been so long since I've written. Life has been a bit busy of late. I've been taking on a little extra work in the evening and you still won't go to sleep by yourself, so Daddy or I spend a good portion of the evening snuggling with you. It is inconvenient, but not unpleasant. You are quite the cuddler. So what is new? Well so much and nothing at all. You continue to amaze everyone with your mastery of speech. It gets better every day. Now you will sit and have conversations with yourself or pretending with your "babies". You tell jokes frequently and love to talk on the phone. Daddy and I have slipped and let you watch a few videos -- Dora the Explorer, Diego, and Dinosaur Train. You really enjoy watching them, but you aren't too much of a TV - aholic just yet. Your extreme preferences for either Daddy or I (depending on who watches you) continue. This, too, can be frustrating, but it seems that this is getting better as well. The one thing that worries me a bit is that you seem far more convinced that Mommy isn't going to come back than Daddy. In fact, you don't seem to be concerned about Daddy leaving at all. I guess I understand. Mommy is more driven to work hard than Daddy. I hope you don't feel insecure about my love for you though. We're a bit at a crossroads with working versus staying at home with you these days. I really feel that you could benefit from some time away from Mommy and Daddy with some children of your own age and we could certainly use the extra money, but at the same time, the thought of not having my days with you breaks my heart. I'm just not sure it is the best thing for you. I feel like we spend a lot of our day running errands or doing things that aren't in your best interest. Heck, sweetie. I don't know what I'm doing. I just want what is best for you. I always think that I am going to start structuring our days together better, but then it is 4:00 before I know it and time to start on dinner. I never realized how much time I wasted in my life until I had you! Oh to get those hours back! As time passes I can't help but feel like I'm not fully appreciating watching you grow and change. I can't even really thing of anything to write about here. But you really are amazing. Tonight you spelled your name all by yourself. Not that you really understand, but you repeated the letters I said to you. You have such an awesome memory. How can we cultivate that? I think I could learn a lot from you baby. I wish I were more like you. Ok sweetie, I love you more than anything. As always, Mommy