Saturday, June 4, 2011

Regrets

Dear Catalina,

We took you on your first overnight camping trip last night.  Our friends Scott and Maureen have a party out in the woods every year for their anniversary.  We went out to help them celebrate and to see how we all did camping together.  You were a little crabby, but we all survived.  I awoke in the middle of the night and a bad scare because your face was so cold and you didn't move when I touched you.  I panicked and woke your dad up.  I was so scared!  You were find though... sleeping like a rock.  I'm not sure I'll ever get over the fear that you are going to die in your sleep.  I'm sorry that I wake you so often!

I've been thinking a lot lately about being an older parent.  Perhaps because I was asked if I was a grandmother last weekend when we were in Albuquerque---sheesh that was a blow to my ego!  I feel a little bad that you will never have a young and beautiful mother.  I really hope this doesn't bother you.  For most of my life I looked younger than my years--until I hit 30.  All of a sudden I aged.  I hope this doesn't happen to you.  I'm going to try very hard to encourage you to take care of your skin.  I never really did.  Who knows if it was that or genetics that caused the wrinkles, but it can't hurt for you to be more careful.  Hopefully by the time you're a teenager, getting a suntan won't be as important as it was when I was young.  The things we used to do--yikes!

Anyway sweetheart, I'm sorry I waited so long to have you, but I am so glad you are here in my life!

Here is one of my favorite pictures of us so far......

I love you, darling
Mommy

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